【六根不净 煮酒寻欢】

[There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong]

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

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Boyle revealed her dream: to become a professional singer as successful as Paige - with whom she has sung along countless times, alone, in front of her bedroom mirror, equipped with a hairbrush for a microphone.

Now, in a message of support, Paige, the original Evita in London's West End, has punted the idea of the pair singing together. "Ever since Susan's appearance on Britain's Got Talent my Radio 2 inbox has been flooded with emails," she writes on her website.

"It seems her performance has captured the hearts of everyone who saw it, me included ... it looks like I have competition! Perhaps we should record a duet?"

But then anything, it seems, could happen now in the incredible brave new world Boyle inhabits. As Paige puts it: "She is a role model for everyone who has a dream."

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相比 Elaine Paige 原唱的哀婉抒情，明暗层次丰富，Susan 大妈的翻唱坚挺雄健，清亮明澈，甚至透着一股“卡拉永远OK”的傻气，高亢洪亮，一气呵成，缺少细节的变化和戏剧性情感的演绎。但那傻气正是年轻的梦想才会有的稚拙，也正是拿着梳头棍对着镜子歌唱的大妈初登舞台应有的宣言，那种要让世界尽头最后一排的观众都能听见的气势。

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只能从那几张相片上看到你。黑色的西装，红色的大头皮鞋，笑的脸庞。你是个歌者。腰围道出你的音量。我似乎梦见过你，似乎没有。我忽然很想听你唱：I dreamed a dream。只要一句：No song unsung, no wine untasted.

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有个来面试的胖子，河南人。爱好那一栏，填的是：小酒慢品。于是天然地觉得这个人有趣。他业务能力很强，有过零底薪一个月卖了2万块钱月饼的成绩。年初刚结婚，戒指款式很一般。后来他离开了公司。

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最近也开始喝点小酒。日式的清酒。和鱼生一起买来。酒标的样子很漂亮。

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有人准备关停blog，因为甜蜜。有人开始发送彩信，因为寂寞。

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想品尝你的每一种味道。烈的，淡的，第二天一早醒来后脑发胀的。这个世界已经不再悲惨了吗？一定不是的。一定还会有 unsung song， untasted wine. 悲惨是让美好有味的盐。怎能是盐而不咸，怎能是人而不爱。

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继续读《小团圆》。

The Most Romantic Experience I've ever enjoyed...

http://www.bjornborg.com/en/Missions/Loveforall/datingsite/

出版社 : 皇冠文化出版有限公司
出版日期 : 2009/02/24
價格 : MOP100 

繁體中文版全球搶先曝光 !

無數讀者千呼萬喚，張愛玲最後、也最神秘的小說遺作，終於揭開面紗！

「這是一個熱情故事，我想表達出愛情的萬轉千迴，完全幻滅了之後也還有點什麼東西在。」
                                                              －－張愛玲

張愛玲最後一部小說《小團圓》在塵封多年後終於曝光。在這部類自傳小說裡，張愛玲首次寫出與胡蘭成這段讓她神傷一生的愛情，不過張愛玲生前曾表示要銷毀原稿，如今出版，是否違反張愛玲的遺願，預料也將成為話題...

讀中國近代文學，不能不知道張愛玲；讀張愛玲，不能錯過《小團圓》。

《小團圓》是張愛玲濃縮畢生心血的顛峰之作，以一貫嘲諷的細膩工筆，刻畫出她最深知的人生素材，餘韻不盡的情感鋪陳已臻爐火純青之境，讀來時時有被針扎人心的滋味，因為故事中男男女女的矛盾掙扎和顛倒迷亂，正映現了我們心底深處諸般複雜的情結。

墜入張愛玲的文字世界，就像她所寫的如「混身火燒火辣燙傷了一樣」，難以自拔！

《小團圓》的官方發行日期爲2月23日，目前臺灣各大網絡書店都已經開始預售。而擁有張愛玲小說大陸簡體中文版版權的新經典公司昨日告訴早報記者，對于《小團圓》的出版幷不知情，也尚未取得版權。《小團圓》在大陸的出版可能還需時日，不過《小團圓》終于見天日的消息，還是令張迷興奮不已。 

《小團圓》是張愛玲最爲神秘的作品，從1970年代開始創作至去世前一直未能完成，在之前手稿也從未曝光，僅有好友宋淇、臺灣皇冠文化集團社長平鑫濤等少數人看過手稿。《小團圓》可以看作是張愛玲本人自傳性的小說，她以自己的人生經歷爲藍本，用文學的手法叙述了傳奇一生。張愛玲曾抱怨胡蘭成的《今生今世》中寫他們之間的事“夾纏不清”，在《小團圓》中讀者可能會看到另一個版本的張胡之戀。 

但張愛玲自己對這部小說反復修改，一直不滿意。1976年林以亮在《私語張愛玲》中提到：張那時寫了一個新的中篇《小團圓》，“《小團圓》正在潤飾中。” 《小團圓》初稿寫成之後，張愛玲曾幸福地告訴摯友：“這是一個熱情故事，我想表達出愛情的萬轉千回，完全幻滅了之後也還有點什麽東西在。”1993年7月30日，張愛玲致信平鑫濤，“《對照記》加《小團圓》書太厚，書價太高，《小團圓》恐怕年內也還沒寫完。還是先出《對照記》吧。”張愛玲本人一度同意將《小團圓》在1994年2月的“皇冠四十周年慶”時刊出，與《對照記》合集出單行本。

冬春之交  有雨来扰
车行入山  熊迷于林

背包塞满南国疲惫
我一路向北
忽觉海上梦碎
雨打  风吹  人归

枕边落尽故都喜悲
你且往南飞
何妨心怀迷醉
宽衣  解带  不悔

南北回归线上回归南北
异乡何异  故都何故
胖者何所纳  瘦客何所寡
情何以堪  诗何以成  人何以盼

娓娓道，少年游。

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24日回沪。